A strange kind of victory 10/30/08

A strange kind of victory Current mood: stressed
Last night, for the first time in...10 years of drinking, I got semi-drunk without smoking.
It was awful initially, but I perservered. I quit smoking for about a year and a half when I was 24/25 and they key to my success was I esentially quit drinking. Which, to be perfectly honest, wasn't any fun. I'd panic if there was alcohol around because the fear of wanting a cigarette was so great. Or if I DID drink, I'd do it where I knew there would be cigarettes so that I could sneak off and smoke, i.e. at a party with smoker friends, a bar, etc. I'd never drink at home, which blows after a long, stressful day at the office when I just wanted to sit on the couch with a corona or a glass of red and unwind.
Anyways. I couldn't have one without the other, so I stopped both, except for the rarest of occasions when I knew both alcohol and cigarettes were going to be available, and then I'd indulge freely. Well, it took some time, but sure as shit I've managed to work my way back up to full-time smoker.
So I'm determined to be able to to enjoy alcohol without smoking, be it one drink on a Tuesday or five drinks at a party. And I feel like I'm....thismuchcloser.